tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3325010092808397386.post6742872745176018406..comments2023-09-29T10:12:14.060-04:00Comments on Urban Roguery: How I met Shayne.Roguehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02645124165599230491noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3325010092808397386.post-92063023533053799062009-08-28T07:18:54.883-04:002009-08-28T07:18:54.883-04:00Was it all just a big mistake?
I don't real...Was it all just a big mistake? <br /><br />I don't really think so.<br /><br />Astrologers would tell me that there's significance in that I met Shayne in September 2007, and that after being so annoyingly (and confusingly) wobbly until it came crashing (again, and, finally) in June 2009. They would tell me that it had a lot to do wih Saturn's placement in my chart, and how it was all a big time of crisis for me, and how when it's over, so much will be so good in my world.<br /><br />And yet, Shayne and I touched each other deeply. I introduced her to many avenues in herself that now she wholly depends upon, especially in terms of her own personal kinks. And for me, Shayne brought me through some important attachment issues I had during my journey of personal transformation and reorientation, even if she didn't (and doesn't) necessarily know how or why.<br /><br />I had fully expected that we'd be friends, and perhaps even lovers, for life. In the end, as it turned out, she simply couldn't handle the kind of critiques she dished out herself so frequently, so casually, so flippantly, and made so much more gently (by and large) than she would do.<br /><br />But that's ok. It's ok that she has growing to do, and I'dve been happy to continue mentoring her as she did so. I would still.<br /><br />I love her. Part of me even admires her some. Part of me is also disappointed, and that's ok too.<br /><br />She has new love, vibrant sex, and seems to be very happy. I'm equally happy for her; I simply would have wanted to remain a part of her life, and vice versa.<br /><br />Me, I'm on paths now that she could never really offer. That's sad, in a way, because the truth is that I would have done almost anything for her. I miss her still.<br /><br />But God knows that should we ever become friends again, the hussy is in for one helluva spanking.Roguehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02645124165599230491noreply@blogger.com